Sometimes...

I find it hard to work people out. Since joining the sensation that is twitter ive been impressed and disgusted at the humanity of people today. Some hatred makes me feel sick to the pit of my stomach. Some joy and love makes me feel like theres some love back in the world. When Lily Allen lost her second baby a short while ago i made the crucial mistake of looking at the messages ent to her. mistake. What i thought would be filled with love and support was the odd one saying it was deserved, a good thing, a deserved tragedy. No one women should ever ever ever go through somehting as tragic as that EVER. It saddened me to the point of tears. I dont know this women but i feel i do reading of her story almost every week. I dont know why peoples attitudes bother me so much but they do, perhaps thats soemthing i have to overcome. But for now ill shuffle back to my secure bubble where i believe everybody has a shred of decency inside them, some more open then others.

So me...

Not too much to say in total honesty. I lead a simple, humorous at times life. I'm a student, I have friends, we have fun..simple as. Television and media is my virtue, always has been always will. This summer for example i have been captivated by the much loved much hated show Big Brother. John james Parton and Josie Gibson were my love story. You see, thats the probblem with me. I get wrapped up in others lives, fictional or real. In this case i fell in love with them as they fell in love with each other, despite what cynics say i will always maintain that this was the case. I can't say i'll be reading about them for years to come but thats not to say i wouldnt like too. I don;t think its neccessarily wrong to have become captivated like i have dones so, perhaps a little obsessive. but i am not alone! I stumbled across a JJAT thread and then realised others had become as pathetically (in a wonderfully nice way) involved in there story as i had. I'm a hopless romantic, believe it will happen to me in due course and in the meantime revel in the beauty or others companionship, always have always will.

Getting Motivated

So its 3.56 in the morning and im still trying to write a simple 300 word answer. Simple enough? apparently not you see i CAN NOT for the life of me get motivated to do it. its now an assignment, essay or piece of coursework but i cant bring myself to put pen to paper keyboard to word document in this case. What is wrong with me? I cannot answer because i prefer obviously to go on celebrity sites, twitter,facebook and such. I a university student by the way, poor, tired and stressed to the nines. But happy all the same. I knew there would be work of course i did but i dont know perhaps i was, still am, a little naive as to starting this whole education business again. I've moved from home, look after myself 100% yet i still feel like an immature child when it comes to my attitude to work. It's pathetic? i'm pathetic? I seem more concerned with whats going on in others lives than my own. Gossip,celeberity,television thats my real passion, sad as it seems but thats my entertainment not my living. Not that i have a living that is, I had no idea how hard it would be to find a job, since being i n a city and all, but it is. Seems noone wants to take on an "unreliable, likely to go home for christmas" student. Hence the poor situation. Funny it seems i've spent 5 minutes writing this yet ive spent a week working on my answer..getting no where it seems.